So I have been through hell for a while, and I’ve not really had people around me that are present in the moments when I need them, or in the ways that I have needed.
I have felt like I’m expected to be everybody’s rock, but whilst I’m anchoring them I don’t think they realise that I’m at the end of rope drowning under my emotions.
Today I had a small win, where I gained back some of my power, that was taken from me by a bully in my recent past. Though I didn’t confront the bully, I was able to say what I felt to someone else that had helped this person take my power. So today I feel a little bit stronger.
I am happy to have had it happen the way it did
One thing that has been playing in my mind is getting a new place, which I can’t at the moment… rental shortage in my state and the fact that I don’t have the salary to buy anything past a shoe box. I know if I could step through the door of a house that is truly mine, that I would feel even better about myself.
But hey, what can I do at this point, just keep on doing what I do and maybe just maybe I’ll win the lottery or something. LOL
Now because I have been doing a bit of venting I figure
Have a great day, everyday, wherever you might be.